Please smile to everyone.
Please say yes to everything.
Please do everything now.
Please follow all orders.
Please don't say anything.
Yes, you, please do everything that I ask you to do!!
But you know what, all I want to do now is to scream at the top of my lung.
Yes,be positive. All I been telling myself.
It is going to be ok if I keep telling myself this.
Yet, I'm crying..yet, I'm angry, .
Yet, I feel hopeless in all I do...
Why I'm angry?
I'm angry because you ask us to care when in the end you are the one who didn't care about us for 0.0001%. You ask us to follow orders, but you are the one who breaking all the rules. You ask us to not making mistakes, yet you yourself are not sure what to do. You told us to be diligent, yet you are the one to run away when everything is chaos. You told us to just follow the orders as it was the best for everyone but why our lives is getting miserable everyday, yet you happily shows off your bonuses..
I'm angry ..and I sometimes I feel such a useless human being.
I know,I know be positive ...yalalalala...lol..but let me tell or write it here!!! Be positive everyday and in every second is a miserable human being job ..lol..yes.. I'm angry at so many things..and the real reason is I guess is just how much people around this didn't realized about caring for each other. Been here for so long, alas I guess it was hard to say sorry, how are you or just shows your empathy. Is the bonus really that $$$$ that makes you want to hold it so much?? I wonder.
Life is so funny. I probably have so much negative and shortcomings,that others are probably writing on their facebook wall right now, haha..but i don't know, at the end of the day i still hold in my heart the idea of a leader is to inspire. People will hate you I guess in no matter what. Probably they hate you because you have the same tudung as them lol (kidding) but yeah, hate should be a proper hopeless feeling and yet when you inspire and help those in need, love an respect should be in the highest decree in their heart. I probably still have a long way to go to in life to be in the same position as them, yet I hope everything in my heart is real. Everything that I value in life is real. Ya allah, hope you show me the real way to live, to be near to you and to remember about death in every second in my life insyaallah...may I see the world I want to see and to do the things I want the world to do, insyaallah.
Life is so funny. I probably have so much negative and shortcomings,that others are probably writing on their facebook wall right now, haha..but i don't know, at the end of the day i still hold in my heart the idea of a leader is to inspire. People will hate you I guess in no matter what. Probably they hate you because you have the same tudung as them lol (kidding) but yeah, hate should be a proper hopeless feeling and yet when you inspire and help those in need, love an respect should be in the highest decree in their heart. I probably still have a long way to go to in life to be in the same position as them, yet I hope everything in my heart is real. Everything that I value in life is real. Ya allah, hope you show me the real way to live, to be near to you and to remember about death in every second in my life insyaallah...may I see the world I want to see and to do the things I want the world to do, insyaallah.
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