A letter To a friend :)

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Dear friend,

You might not know me, or you might have forgotten about me, but it's ok...

I'm writing to you to say I'm sorry for everything...

I'm sorry for being too quite, maybe you probably feel a little bit overwhelmed that you also forgot that I have a voice,

I'm sorry for not saying anything, even though I know I should,

I'm sorry for not being there, I'm so selfish,

I'm sorry for thinking that you are not good enough for me,

I'm sorry if I had hurt you.....

See the things is, I'm never knew I was good, I never believe I can be the best, I never trust myself..
I'm too angry with everything, everyone, blaming that it was everyone's fault that I'm different...
I can't see myself in the mirror,such that was seeing an ugly face that I want to forget...
I don't speak as I'm afraid to looks straight into your eyes..
I'm afraid that you could see my disability that I wish I could disappear in flash light..

For that all negativity I had before ,
Thank you for being there,
THANK YOU for being my friend, 
Thank you for giving me the chance to live again as a human being who finally accepts that she is half blind ^_^ 

My current positive songs on repeat :)

The Anyway Poem

               ~ People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;

Forgive them anyway.

~If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

              Be kind anyway.

     ~If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

               Succeed anyway.

     ~If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

              Be honest and frank anyway.

      ~What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

               Build anyway.

     ~If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;

              Be happy anyway.

          ~The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

              Do good anyway.

           ~Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

              Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.

  You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;

              It was never between you and them anyway

-Mother Teresa

What's in for ME?

Wakes up,ready for work,arrived, breakfast, open the pc, lunch, stare up front,left and right,SHUT DOWN.
Life should be great,but instead I feel so wrong to be alive, to pretend that this is it.This is the life that I want. What should I be,What should I do? What was I meant to be????
Being 29 (in another 3 months!!) I realised that I'm not afraid to age, but I was afraid that I'm not actually living my life.....

People get married, but are they happy? 
They have children, do they have time?
They are a couple,do they fight?

Life seems to be so easy, yet, my heart feels so empty by not knowing What should I do....
Ya Allah,berikanlah aku petunjuk ke jalan yg diredai-amin