Half year battle, half day moved on

Writing this om 17th July 2016.

Looking back at my life. Looking back at my age.

One of these days, or exactly 3 days ago, I spend most of the days sleeping or just wondering my thoughts. What am I doing right now? Am I doing the right thing?

Am I a good person? Am I doing the best that I should? Why I'm feeling lonely? Why I can't just say what I want? 

Why I need to pretend?

And I guess the same questions coming back to me again. Am I doing the right thing?

I wish someone can let me know. I wish I know how to live my life

I wish I know all the answers.

Like they said. Find a mentor. 

Of course, I've been thinking it so much. And the same questions come back to me. Am I doing rhe right thing?

Lonely. And they say talk to Allah. I know. And I know I'm not the best muslims out there. And I'm still trying. And the same questions come back to me. Why me? Why cant you just show me the way. What I'm supposed to do in my life right now?

I'm writing this post not because I want to admit my defeat. Or tired. I guess this was a phasing on time that I have. 

A lot of time I wonder. What I'm doing or whether it is a right thing to do. Most of the time I need to pretend to be happy, to be motivated and to be strong. And people expect you to. And I expect myself to be better.

I'm not sure if I can be 'better' to some person. But I do know I'm trying to be a better person to me. And so, dear Munirah. Please be happy. Please hang on..everything will be allright. Please be patient. Please let it go. Please be stronger. Please, I hope in year future when you read this whole thing, just realised you just finish one of the chapter of your own. 

#bestrong #behappy. And to everyone who struggle out there, #bestrong and #behappy too. 

Life will be better..

Xox ;)) ;))) ;)))

munirahkhadri

Time passes no one

19th May 2016.

I will be heading to 33 soon.

Funny and weird how sometimes I think or maybe I feel that I'm not old. I'm not going anywhere. Then the reality sinks in when the cousins, which you used to play with, hold and just be angry with now working, go to schools and now getting married.

It's not I feel bad that I'm going old. But somehow I feel the weirdness. I feel that my time will come soon. The death. The move on . The phase.

Looking back at my life before I hit 30, I thought I have achieved everything. The job, the house, the car. And somehow after I hit 30, I realised my life is no longer sprited and feels less colourful than before.

Dear Munirah,

Please be strong. Please be happy. Please moved on. Please be courageous.

Dear Munirah,

You will achieve what you desire. Be brave. Be happy. Be diffrent. Be motivated. Be strong. Be willing to sacrifice. Be willing to be near to Allah. Be positive. Be thankful. Be open to any possibilities. Be whatever you want. Be a giver. Be someone that is important to society. Be someone that can change the environment. Be someone that can bring the greatness to nature.

Dear Munirah

Be brave. Dont give up. Percaya dengan allah. Percaya dengan takdirNya. Believe.

Xox,

Munirah Khadri

Should I???

Mix feeling really. I ask everyone. No one ask me to do what makes me happy. They ask me to think about the worst case that can happen. So I did what I did the best. Write it all out. And so I put it in the wall and I know the answer. It was all in my heart all the time. The main question is, Could I achieve my dreams if I stay? 

And if I go, can it become better than now? Do I believe it? YES!!

Do I know how to do it? No. But deep in my heart I need to do this.

What if my life end tomorrow? It will kill me coz I know Im not listening to my heart all along. Was I just being the best now,shows the best that I could be? What is life and love if its all being told to do what others want you to do?

At the end of the day, what will be the diffrence in  my life if I stay to do the same thing, at the same place.

Life is to give, life is to have fun, Live to be happy ^_^

Xoxo-Munirah #decahaya

Seoul March Trip & Decahaya updated

I have wrote this before my Busan / Seoul trip , but somehow I did not push it as "Publish" ;p
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#Cant believe I'm going to Seoul again while I'm supposed to blog about my March trip #cries #inserthelplesslook :))

While I have written down all the places that we went, I dont think I can blog much and put everything here..so I guess it will just be a note of life or A note for traveller :)

The most that I remembered about the March trip is how crazy it was to bring 20 people in one go.

How crazy it was when people have their own opinion throws at you. But at the end of the day, I enjoyed it so much that it was a great motivation for me to become better.

And of course how we stay in Itaewon, such a weird combination of place. We stay at Cozy Place but seriously it was not as par as the name lol..tsktsk..I guess diffrent people will have diffrent view. But I just hope that we could actually check out from the house immediately, but just it was tiring to move around. Seriously, I feel like the Namsan Guesthouse feels so much better than here.

The guesthouse we stay earlier for the first group is at Chungmuro Guesthouse. All in all one of the cleanest and the best guesthouse we ever stay in Seoul. Quite a 10-15 min walk to Chungmuro station by foot. Not the nearest, but the orange line is good as we use it the most while in Seoul.

Our lunch at Nami Ok restaurant, the halal dakgalbi

the red bus for our nami trip to/ fro Seoul

All of us trying to fit in hehs

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Updated in June 2016. Harga setiap pakej berbeza mengikut musim. Contact us for more info ^_^.

The Travel that change me! ^_^

This was copied from a status that I wrote in a travel group a month ago...since a group of people have this war of question of whether travel as backpacker or the normal luggage beg,with travel agent is better etc etc....haha..so I went and kinda join the argument..not sure whether there are people read this, but somehow I feel good that I managed to write this long in FB!! lol and of coz maybe they 'like ' the status because of my Canada pic ^_^..

my  forever precious memories in Canada..the travel that change me in life <3<3

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     Salam ^_^..terpanggil saya utk share di sini.Before this,silent reader je.Niat di hati nak masuk group ni utk cari kwn2 utk travel ke Australia & Europe.Bukan tak berani nk pegi sengsorang,tapi rasanya lagi meriah kalau berkawan. Ini just pengalaman saya ke luar neg 10 thn lps. Tak lama,8 bln je.Nasib uni yg byr,so saya dgn senang hatinya mengutip pengalaman yg tak seberapa.

      Tempat dituju,Peterborough,Canada.Dalam 1 jam pjalanan ke Toronto. Saya tak pnh bwk beg galas ala2 backpacker ;)..tpi waktu nilah pengalaman seumur hidup ke luar neg seorang diri,naik flight seorang selama 25 jam to the other side of the world. Igt lagi masa tuh punyalah excited dpt pegi,happy yg amat,gembira buat persiapan semua.Masa jejak tanah ke aiport canada tuh barulah jadi minah terkejut haha..sbb tgk semua org mat salleh.Masa tuh bru lah igt mak bapak sedara kat rumah.Masa tu bru lah tanya diri sendiri betul ke keputusan yg aku amik ni.Tpi masa tu terpaksa kuatkan hati sbb yelah,takkan nk patah balik kan,duit pun pihak uni dh kluarkan,mau je nnti kena buang uni kalau balik hehe..so teruskan saja.

    To cut long story short,pengalaman 8 bln di Canada ni mmg saaya tak akan lupakan seumur hidup.Pertama,tak ada org Melayu lain kat uni tuh.So nak tak nak sya kena berkwn dgn bangsa asing.Dan suprisingly merekalah kwn yg sya sgt treasure smpi sekarang.Kenapa?Sbb kerana sya tak ada family disanalah,mereka melayan saya spt keluarga mereka.And until today,saya belajar,utk org hormati kita,tak kiralah bangsa,kaum apa pun,kita kena hormat mereka dulu.Insyallah hati mereka terbuka.Even saya pegi masa tu masih segar peristiwa 11/9/01.Ramai org msia suruh saya bhati2 takut saya ni pki tudung,org Islam, ada yg tak puas hati.

      Tapi alhamdulillah,semua yg saya jumpa sgt hormatkan saya sbgai org Muslim.

Even keluarga angkat saya dgn murah hati bgi tumpangkan saya dirumah mereka waktu krismas sbb org lain cuti & saya tak ada tmpt tinggal masa tu.Syukurnya masa tu ada ruang utk berteduh. Masa tulah dpt rasa duduk tgk cara mereka smbut krismas& they even get all the way to buy halal chicken for me huhu..terharu ^_^..

     My point of this story is..saya mmg berharap utk ke Canada sekali lagi.Kalau boleh nk duduk sebulan cover semua.esp nk ke Montreal & Ottawa. 8 bulan duduk kat sana tak sempat sbb masa tu budak baik, asyik study je haha..but as far as I'm working right now,banyak benda2 yg timbul so sya mula fikirkan cara2 utk kumpul duit.Antaranya jual bju,shawl dll.

      And suprisingly ada org bgi idea since saya selalu jgak ke Seoul,why not bwk org yg nk pegi Seoul jgak.So I come up with this itenerary utk share dgn kwn2 and insyallah sya akan start bwk org next year.

        So motif sya taip pnjg2 ni ialah sya harap anda boleh membantu saya utk kumpul duit spaya sya dpt ke Canada semula.. haha (gurau yeah).My point is,the more I travelled the more I learn to be 'human being'.The more i see that all human being is equal..you and me in this world hidup utk melihat keajaiban allah wujudkan di dunia(my personal opinion).That is why I love to travel.Regardless what beg you wear,where u go,u need to see this world.Fullstop.

Saya happy masuk group ni sbb sya mmg ada minat yg sama.And I hope its the same to all of you too.Travel to understand that life is so beautiful ^_^.#sayabkntravelagent tpi mempunyai misi utk kumpul duit melihat serata dunia hehe..so yeah if anyone is interested dgn itinerary yg tak seberapa tuh can let me knw yeah hehe..thank you admin!! Hehe pjg dah taip nih adios ^__^

Xoxo

Munirah Khadri ^^

On the matter of loneliness

I don't think I have many friends. Not trying to be negative, but I don't think I make friends with a lot of people when I'm in school haha..I guess I spend hating myself at that time that I forgot that there are real people around me.

When people said they have reunions, dinner & such I do get that little feeling. What if I was diffrent at that time. Again I wonder if I have diffrent kind of life around me. ^_^

But regardless of this, I hope somewhere, someone remembers about me.
That the most important thing I hope someone pray for me when I'm gone.
I hope a lot of people come to see me on that final day.
I would be happy.

If someone said that I changed their lives to be better I guess I can die happily.

That is my ultimate dream. I don't think I have a lot of times left in this world, so I just want to live happily and I hope I made others happy too ^_^. For the loneliness is in the heart & in the mind. I pray someone remember me. I pray that I do make difference in this world :)

The book that change me ^_^

Ok...im quite stressed after looking at the views of my previous post ^_^..but of coz it was a Girl good stressed practice for me..

Glad I send the email to that person in 5 minutes & really send it without thinking..

Heart knows better' ^_^..

So today I will start again. To think of how I will restart again this blog ^_^..what should I write? What should I do huhu..

Tajuk hari ini: Who's that Girl?

Aha!! The book that I read just before I turn 30..

Not the best chick lit that I ever read..but the story inspired me to think.

It was about the girl who is 30 years old & were able to go back to change her lives when she was 18 years old.

Yes from 30 --->>18 ..do you have anything that you want to change if you can go back to your younger self??

I have!!! A lot!! Lol..not even when I'm 18 years old. I wish I can go back maybe when I'm 7 years old. 

If I can go back, and meet myself ..I want to shake my shoulders really hard and knock my head so many times. And maybe then I hug myself. What I want to tell myself is 'It is ok to be diffrent. Don't be afraid. You are amazing. Love and be loved. Laugh more.Be crazy. You are amazing!!

Yes, I wish! I wish I was told with all the positive energy when I was a child. Maybe life will be diffrent. But then if it is , there will be no 'me' right now. Because right now I am amazing in my own way. All the things I learn and mistakes I made, this was an amazing 31 years I'm being alive. 

Xoxo,

Munirah Khadri

Why I took the pictures

Copy paste from an email I sent to someone on 17/12/2013....

Hi..

Thanks for the early reply.I don't really have anything in mind, just this is kinda a dream sort of thing. I'm going to be 30 years old this December. 

I have a weird background of life. I was born with blind in one eye and that have make me living in a cage sort of.

I always think I'm not beautiful and pretty enough in front of camera. Since young being in front of camera scares me. I was scared people to look at the pictures and say I make their pictures look weird.

Or just looking at it and asking me a lot about my conditions.

But growing up, opening up to a lot of people and travelling have changed me. I realise that what outside didn't make the person. What is inside that matter.

So this, taking a potrait picture is one of my wishlist before I turn 30 years old.

I want to compensate the time I run away from being in front of camera & for once be brave enough to accept my disability.

For once I want a beautiful picture where I bravely look at the lenses and said Im ready, and smile..

Yeah, this is my story.Sorry for the long paragraphs and all :). This is my first time doing this & it all starts with a dream & a wish.Please let me know if you have any idea.

Thank you!!!!!..oh, by the way, if December your time is already full, I'm ok in January too.

Rgds,

Munirah Khadri

and guys...that is the reason why I took all this picture ^_^

Btw, it was not the same person who took this picture & the one I send my email above :)

2014 My Goal ~~

I wrote this on my birthday...at first thought, I kinda felt overwhelmed, in one way,I want to have so many things, and the other half in my mind is asking whether this is achievable. So I guess the rules is to write as much as you can in 10 minutes and write everything in your head without ever thinking everything...so I wrote this on my diary :)

- Earn $100k in a month
- Have $100k in Tabung Haji
- Have $200k in ASB
-Buy a bungalow house at Damansara at $5mil
-Date, Married, Babies lol
-Go to Paris
-Go to Spain
-Go to Turkey
-Go travel around the world
-------------and after a good 5 minutes scratching my head to write more things, I ended up with my crazy long list lol

2014 will be the year where, I;
-Go crazy
-Go spontaneous
-Go and be brave
-Go and do stupid things
-Go and like a person
-Go and see the world
-Go write something
-Go and see the beautiful clouds
-Go and do crazy things
-Go and have lots of money
-Go and be happy
-Go and make other people happy
-Go and do something
-Go and see the world
-Go go go go do it!!!!!

Pffftttt..haha ..reading it make me smile ^_^, it was not the best goal setting ever, yeah with all that s.m.a.r.t thing, but anyways I love it..it need to be more specific but I will take it as my guidelines for everything comes in 2014! :) ...ohhh and I super like the quote I found below..to have courage in your heart to understand the unthinkable :)

Over The Cloud

I feel like there is a cloud on my head.
Hovering circling ...
And there...
I know what it is in my heart, the reasons of something that makes me feel scared of tomorrow.
Afraid of doing anything, afraid of the results that it can be.

30 years old.married before dating. Having children and to be 40.
Old.Die.Young.

Sometimes I wonder if there is anyone like me.

Ok.maybe not.
Are you even real? 

Girls who at 30 and never date anyone are from Pluto really.

Sigh.

Ok.So I want to change.
I am a change person.So what?
Everyone else is married.
See the thing is only fish and cat are not married yet.
DANG.

Lol..pffttttt... Then are those people who are not like me really happy??
Those that is Married before 30.Have kids.Have someone to have anniversary with. Those people.Are you happy?

They say be thankful.

I do.
That is why you read this.
That is why I write this.
Because if I'm not thankful, I will not feel anything.
Because I'm human being I want something more.

Because as I try hard in life, sometimes I cry and see the moon and skies above and ask why?

I want a rainbow.I want sunshine.. But the cloud is so dark, I need a thunder and a little bit of rain!!

#101cloudrant end.

Dreams Do Come True

If you dream enough
If you are brave enough
If you are persistent enough
To take all the action
To trust your heart

Dreams do come true.....

Have you ever told strangers about your dream? Have you ever think about what if you have everything in life to make your dreams come true? ?

I was not in the position to understand the feeling until I did the exercise on Les Brown seminar last week. So much I feel that it is easy to open your heart to tell the world your stories...

The most amazing thing is you will find that there are somebody out there who actually have the same dream with you...

Life I guess is to take action...as much as others didn't believe that what Im going to do..I have the doubt too. I told myself its now or never...I need to stop the 'What if' thinking could have been..I decide to let the words out.

And I'm glad I did ♥

Im proud that I was brave..and most importantly...I feel different. ......
Those who never had known me said they were inspired ...that I moved their heart..that I was precious. ..something somehow as much I told myself that I was important in this world to have others to said it was amazing super kind of weird feeling....and I, Munirah Mohd Khadri is super happy

Xoxo

My question book of life ^^

My answer;

Life is doing something with purpose;
Happiness is doing something you love;
Love is unconditioned;
Trust is believing;
Matter is deep in our heart;
Kind is helpful;
Courage is believing your destiny ♡♡

My story

Its kinda the theme of the week..what is your story. .what is the story you want to share to the world..

Hearing the speaker talk about it in front of the stage. I wish to speak up, but then I don't.

I guess I will have to share the story in my heart firstly here. 

A story about the girl who is different from the others. While the doctor said it's one in a million, she didn't believe it. It's a mistake she tell herself..something should have been done years ago. A answer she try to find soon was a question of her self belief.

If we could have more money we could treat it..They say you will be okay. Nothing will changed.

For all the above reasons they want her to believe,  the more she found its hard to accept all the consequences of life. 

No one tells her to be strong..

No one tells her its the reason of the disabilities that will make her special..

In everyday of life, the insult, the laugh..and the mirror was her world.

The promise she made was' I will never take a picture as I hate how people will laugh at me, I made the pictures looks weird'

' I can't see people in their eyes,  it hurts when they asked back why I was different'

'I can't get married because I hate people looking at my eyes and taking a picture of myself'

Living everyday with the kind of thoughts..not in a second she wish god will take her away..

In the moment of truth, she wonder the reason she's still here. What is the purpose of my life?? she asked everyday..Do I need to do something??

 It was hard with tears and self talk as a her companion. .sometimes the tears falls like the raindrops without a warning....

LifE they say is a mystery. .the age was the savior..While looking back, at the times of life., she notice how she is different from the others. How she had achieved more than what the other normal people had done. It was not the best but it was more for people to envy.It could be better. 

And so the story begins...at the second part of life. This is the starting point of her story. To live with full of hope, happiness and courage. To make mistakes.To learn to let it go. To be true to herself. To look forward for the dreams. To just sit and smile and be happy. 

A promise if ever god finally want to take her away, she want to be happy at that moment of time.Leave a great life to be remembered.  

And that is the story of her and the story of me..

Xoxo

Munirah Khadri

Loving life ♥♥
Pic from Pinterest~Beach Living & Waves

June

June was weird. .

For something I didn't know how to make it happen, it turns out to be such an achievement. .

But that's in the area which I have known how to do it,
How to reach, run and hold it..

And now, here in the last day of June, I wonder about the things that I want it to be..things that I want to feel..things that I want to experience. .

How can I make it really true in this reality?

 In that sense of the real positive thinking, I told myself that I can, I must and I will..
Will LOVE be here by the same way??  Can I really be the person I want to be??? Love, greatness,  Happiness...please be here..please come here..please let it stay in my heart ♥

I WANT...

30 things I want to do before I turn 30

So there was this list that I wrote probably on Dec 2012 /Jan, 2013...

Untuk mengingatkan saya bahawa saya akan menghampiri usia itu, Lol

And to remind myself that its celebration of all things that I want to accomplish on this year..

So here is the list originally..

1) Travel to Canada

2) Travel to Mekah

3) Do bungee jumping in Australia

4) Visit Hobbit in New Zealand

5) Talk in front of 1000 people

6) Ride hot air ballon

7) Go to Korea to meet JYJ

8) Volkswagen GTI

9) Money -Earn, Save , Invest, {$15k after tax, $500k in ASB, 2 properties)

10) Burberry bag

11) Take potrait picture with family and friends

12)...

13)....

14)....

..

...

...

30)

Yes, that is all in the list...
I did not finish it until now, and its already May 2013..
With the coming of June, I only have another 6 months to look back, to think, and to ask my heart with all those questions again...

Also in my diary, I wrote~To walk through life or to walk with life;  going back or to starts a new beginning ...

What actually did I achieve in this 5 month? ???

1) Travel to Seoul
●●The initial plan was really to go Mekah, tapi apakan daya, with all the new visa rule, terpaksa tarik diri..hv to let it pass for now..so the funny thing abt my seoul trip, it just so randomly that a good friend is going and I was there with cash..my thinking was  since I already plan to travel,  what the heck, just use it and travel anyway..And I'm glad I did it.
•• Never been to Seoul before, but I was just so excited that I did the research to the places that I wanted to go, how to go there, how much is the cost etc etc..Yeah...it was the trip whereby the Travel Planner inside of me was born :)
2) Paragliding
3) See myself on tv for 2 seconds :), I miss You korean drama commercial
4) House.Puchong.1000sq feet. (In process)
5) Job.Assistant Manager.Wage Increase.[well like others, my 1st thought, where did that come from?? :) ]
6) ASB~nope..I dont think it will grow as much I dream it to be,  but I'm going to make it RMxxxk. If god willing :)
7) Decahaya Travel
8) The Smile Within.Accidentally Perfect.♥♥♥

Yup,so that was it..Just 8. A small one..not even half of 30!!....

But after so much thought and self talk, I don't think it was a bad number...

See, when you decide for a goal, dream or target, you need to take action.And when you see the results, something inside have change to make it happen..

For me , there was a little bit of sadness when I know some of the thing might never happen, but I'm happy at least 1% of me were nearer to that dream than before..the best part of all this, was when random people told me that I look different or I look happier :), or with question,  What happen to you??..it was a defining moment for me to realised that I, Munirah Mohd Khadri are better than the person I used to be..

I might not the perfect person I want to be.
I might not be the richest girl yet.
I might be imperfect to be blind in one eye..but I will never make myself down again. I was braver, have more confident to talk and to see others with eye to eye..

With a promise I had made for myself to search the happiness around me and to appreciate life...So let us together dream of our dream..let us play with our imaginations :) , For this coming months,I actually have written what I want to do!! hoping to write it down here soon!! And I hope I will get some inspiration from the above and from people around me too...

Be safe and keep smiling :)

Accidentally Perfect

So I changed the title of this blog from seeing the world in half blind to Accidentally Perfect, just because....

I want to change my life..I know my life has changed..not yet to where I want it to be, but it's moving to the direction of my dreams. .

Love..money ..hope..

What is the matter most, instead thinking that life is unfair,  I will believe that I was here for a reason. .it was not perfect because of my circumstances,  but I will make it accidentally perfect :), because destiny have a reason..to live and to be happy. .

My 1st Paragliding Experience!!!

Alhamdullillah I come back in pieces, lol..

It was a crazy idea and I only bought 1 coupon from groupon, since I'm not sure whether there will anyone who will do it together with me..

Thank god, Wai Yien were ready to be part of my weird 'must do' list of things before I turn 30 years old :)

So we took KESAS, to Pelabuhan Klang and were quite OK as we had our GPS set from the coordinate given..but after some 15 mins into the kampung area, we were led to dead end road twice!! In the end, we just go with our gut to find the place and yeah, next time really need a 4 wheel drive as you will encounter unpaved road, as I guess it was for all the big trucks around there..

We arrived around 11 am..and there is already group of 6 people comes ahead of us, and so we spend like 2 hours under the tree in the middle of random place in Pulau Indah..hoho

Excited for our turn!!

Fly!!! Fly!! Fly!!

can u see me??

Flying High!!

 So basically you will be flying for around 10 to 15 mins depending on the wind condition. 

 It was different view altogether when you were below seeing it flying up in the sky, and then be the one sitting in the seat.

Was it scary, Yes!!! When the guy told me to put my seatbelt and my helmet on, I was like that's it?? What if  this thing fall down, how I can come back alive? What if we fall into the sea, how I can save myself if there is emergency, lol..yeah, that is so many thought in my 1st 5 mins up flying in the sky..that I just hold tightly the side bar beside me while recite all the doa that I know, but after a while, you could really feel the beauty of it. 

The beauty of the wind on your face, the beauty looking at the birds flying in front of you and looking at those things below and wonder that they really look so small...and for me I guess, there is never ending beauty of this earth that will make me wonder the creation of God, and for me, the feeling was serene? liberated? That to everything is so small from up the sky, I wonder should I see my problem as what I learn from today, you were not alone,That the world is so vast and full of places and hope.That at the end of the day, our problem is  so small to compare the beauty of this earth <3 ..

By the end of our 10 mins, we really thought it was so short..but I guess it was really a good experience..

Will I do it next time?? Yes!! probably I will do it at different place like the video below...woohoo..

And since we don"t really take our breakfast, so we head on to our 2nd plan of the day to Empire Mall to celebrate belated lunch for the birthday girl.. Ole-ole Bali..

Us sitting outside eventhough its so hot, with my reason I want to take pictures!! ^^

my food!!!..with banana shake..so yummy

WY choice of ayam panggang and barley lime

Yes, we finish everything since we were so hungry and one part of me was because of the price is in the group of, alang2 dah order mahal,jangan membazir, haha..but its really good..and I'm now writing this 7 hour after and still I feel so full!! we go back right after, that we don't bother to walk around the shopping mall, because we were so tired, even though it was our first time there..

So there it goes an update of one of my to do list before I turn 30 ^______^, should head up and write about my Seoul trip before my 'amnesia' kicks in :)

Canada

Could you start from something to achieve anything??

Its 12.45 am and I just feel that I need to let it out..Having overwhelmed by so many things..my life, my business that I've dream to do, my future that I want to be, the things that I want to own, and so many forth..

So many times, I heard people will said the 'person' can do this and that because she's the daughter of datuk and datin, she have money since she's born and so forth..

My inner feeling would probably have felt the same thing over and over again, and that's why I have doubt..Could I become something from nothing?
Could I buy something worth millions from nothing?
Could I dream a bigger things, a bigger dreams , while I' m nothing??

A question which I probably have inside of me for so many times, for so many reasons when I  have doubt about myself, for everything I give reasons when I failed...was it??
It is not a statement that I believe in my heart, yet I allowed it to be in my head for so long, for so many times..

And yes and this moment of time, I open my Canada album and I realizad, I've achieved something that not many have be able to do the same thing as me..to say that I' m unique is probably quite far fetched, :), but now I realised, that all the experience I've had, that I have go through, no one can duplicate it in their life, and that person now is Me, no one can take this away..

Travelling all by myself to the other side of the world, not knowing what going to happen in front of me, 

Being the only Malaysian, Malay and Muslim in the place that I only see in TV, too foreign, too diffrent from a place I called home,

Being brave to say goodbye to everyone I know at home, and saying hi to strangers that I meet,

I laugh, I cry, I smile, I jump, I see, I touch about ..

So many things, 

AND I LEARN 

That life will give everything that you have dream, only if only you believe you will ACHIEVE it some day,

So yes, to my dear self, dream big, dream always, dream all the beautiful things in life because you deserve it more than you believe it.♥♥

Xoxo...Munirah Khadri